As Douglas ran, as the wind overhead cried out in a cacophony of tones and pitches, as the very horses they rode in on were mangled and left for dead with nothing but their neighs of pain and agony to mix with the unadulterated roar of the storm, he felt nothing but terror. Flashbacks of the dead in
Alliria during the assault by the Geckans, the instance he nearly killed his own master through emotional miscontrol at a young age, all of it flooded back as he ran for the sanctuary of the temple. His face was splattered in a mixture of blood and sand, his face wrap torn away amidst the chaos of finding safety amongst the
ruins. He collapsed as he finally made it there, letting his hands hold him up over cold stone, holding back the urge to gag at the thought of the dead.
It was fear he felt first, but sorrow he felt next. Those men, many he had chosen to come with the assistance of Agron himself. The simple fact was he had as much to do with their death’s as anyone on the caravan, as he had been the guiding hand, the one to warn them of danger; and all the warning signs had been there. The electrifying air, the thrum of magic, but he was insolent, stupid and inexperienced in the grand understanding of the expedition. He was too distracted by the thumping of the heart, now muddled amidst screams and terror, and it had cost so many their lives. He swore quietly at first, the slow outpour of emotion that led to a cry of anger and hatred as he stood;
“
Damn the gods!”, he said as he moved to
Raziel.
The third emotion Douglas felt was anger, pure and excessive fury that festered in his gut like a stone and brought all his muscles to bear. He was strong, a large specimen for his age, and he had been in a long history of college fist fights and bouts; as customary for the scholars of
Elbion who fraternized. He was no different, and as he moved across the hall and past
Galen all the anger he held lashed out in a tremendous fist moving to Raziel’s jaw.
“
I told you no magic!”, he cried out in a slowly muddling mixture of furious anger and deep sorrow, “
But no, you had to prove yourself, didn’t you?”
In his emotions, whether the strike had met its point or not, he moved to sit on a rock with his head buried in his hands, fingers gripping locks of hair as his chest heaved. His eyes watered, and the boy turned man wanted nothing more than to weep, but he held on for the sake of strength; to show he wasn’t completely lost.
So many dead… So much blood on his hands...