He wasn't surprised by Tadhg coming down to relish in the sight, but he didn't expect the violence that followed. He truly shouldn't have been in hindsight. After all, he had said beg. What better way to inspire such an act than to visit the similar violence upon the one begging. For being as small as he was though, the kick to the face hurt like hell. He threatened the others and kept his foot planted on the warlocks face.
"
Please Tadhg, forgive me. I'm so sorry for what happened. Aaron didn't deserve-" Trahaearn began to plead before the boot swiftly kicked him in the jaw again. It didn't stop his sobbing though. The strange blend of shame, memories, and the pain he was in pushing the streams to continue.
You don't get to say his name, you piece of shit! Tadhg yelled before placing his boot back on his face.
"
I'm sorry Tadhg, what Malice did was wrong. I-" His sobbing cutting into his words before he was able to continue. "
I don't want Mal to die. Please Tadhg, please!"
The boot was removed as his chin was lifted up, the sobbing still continuing as he was spoken to. His eye and whole side of his face were severely bruised. The unexpected flipping feeling unsettled him further, the precarious grasp he had on his emotions very near to slipping out of his grasp as he saw the vision before him. He knew that laughter, knew that form and those eyes. His silence disturbed him deeply, and the odd feeling confused him greatly as he came back to see Tadhg almost doubled over laughing.
The image that flashed in his mind as his face returned to the ground was clear, and he knew exactly how hopeless all of this had suddenly become. It was so far away, so very far away and they had no time at all to even think about going. The entirety of all this seemed to terribly wasted and forlorn.
The words were not lost on him as he listened, his sobbing slowing a bit as the clurichaun spoke
. His face against the cold ground felt splendid, his head swimming with all that had just happened. While his sobbing had slowed, it had not stopped completely, his hands grasping at the loose earth beneath and around him.
Sounds came from around him, and intense light as Ellis yelled. The snapping of trees filling the air around him, the wind and gusts battering him as he laid there. Ellis called to him as the clurichaun made his exit, the wind dying around him as the earth settled once more. The deafening silence of the world around him was a pressure he hadn't expected. Everything was so muddled by his pain and emotions. He needed some time to think and not feel. His eyes burned as the tears continued.
"
I'm not leaving without righting what I've done. I won't be shamed further by leaving her grave open to the world!" He hissed to Ellis, pushing through the pain to address the man. His attention then focused on the job ahead of him.
"I'm sorry, my daughter. I defiled your grave for nothing. I'm so terribly sorry my dear." He cried to the open grave before him. Not able to blame the Disir or direct his hatred any other way than at Tadhg, he used the feeling to carefully stand and eased himself back into the grave. Fetching the bloodied box, he began to place it beside her and thought better of it. He hadn't told Mal where they were going to spare her from having to be reminded of her past life. He couldn't very well come back empty handed and expect her to not ask questions without some form of proof.
He placed it back outside of the grave, maneuvering himself carefully as he closed the lid and bid his daughter one final farewell.
"
I hope you can forgive your silly daddy for this my dear." He sobbed, not caring if the brothers heard him. His hand lingered on the lid, his lip trembling as hot tears slowly rolled down his cheeks. "
Järeg-" He blubbered and had to stop to suppress a choking sob. After several deep breaths, he tried again, his voice wavering.
"
Järeg needed her heart darling, and daddy came to get it. I'm-" He paused once more, the hiccup in his breathing loud and unforgiving. "
Daddy is very sorry. Sleep in peace, shu ä igu juvo vönob." The man finished with a sharp inhale, as if a weight had been lifted, or taken upon himself.
He went quiet for a moment before pulling the ax down and beginning to slowly hammer the nails back in.