Raea could admire the way someone like Aurora was both free to do as they pleased and still confined to duties and obligations. Raea had a different kind of freedom, one that she had to work hard--just to stay alive. She had no permanent job, no major responsibilities. The few friends she managed to make she kept in touch with as they parted ways.
In a way, Raea was envious of it. She wondered--if House Knight had survived the Red Night--would she be in a similar position? Or would she be called upon to marry and produce heirs and solidified that House Knight continued with her? Would she be bored politicking away with some man probably twice her age who held no regard for what she wanted now that he was Lord Knight? Raea thought Aurora brave in that moment for bending the rules. Her memory stone rolled around in the palm of her hand, warm and soothing. "I hope one day I am brave enough to do the same. I don't think I want to be tied down to tradition. My life changed when my family line was..."
All of these seemed apt and yet too violent--too much for words. As if--to say them meant it was all very true and still not some nightmare. The Red Night had been vile, brutal--no. Ruthless? No, even that word did not taste right on her lips, on the cusp of her vivid recollection. The scent of blood still made her queasy--it was a miracle she could be a healer at all. At first, it had been difficult. She had been screamed at by an elf mage who was tired of a woman who was too light-headed at the sight of blood. In time, she got over it, but to say it did not still make her stomach churn would be a lie.
Corpses that were neatly displayed. Propped in ridiculous poses--ludicrous and insidious. It was evil, and yet there was a mockery--a jest of the lives the people led before they were killed. Raea blinked rapidly, forcing the memory down--down and away. It was not what she wanted pressed upon her memory stone with its curious memories already swirling around.
"--I'm sorry. It's honestly a long and sordid story. I won't bore you with the details. But I will say--I find you admirable, Your Ladyship! Not everyone in your position has the opportunities afforded to them to be able to step away. Who looks after your people while you are away--that is, if you don't mind my asking?" It occurred to Raea that she may have insulted a royal. She chewed her inner cheek and winced at the boldness and insinuation of her words. Not since the Red Night had she spoken to other nobles on equal measure--let alone an individual from a royal line.
It occurred to her that for someone who was of noble birth she truly had the most appalling manners...
Eternity
In a way, Raea was envious of it. She wondered--if House Knight had survived the Red Night--would she be in a similar position? Or would she be called upon to marry and produce heirs and solidified that House Knight continued with her? Would she be bored politicking away with some man probably twice her age who held no regard for what she wanted now that he was Lord Knight? Raea thought Aurora brave in that moment for bending the rules. Her memory stone rolled around in the palm of her hand, warm and soothing. "I hope one day I am brave enough to do the same. I don't think I want to be tied down to tradition. My life changed when my family line was..."
Murdered?
Slaughtered?Eviscerated?
Wiped from existence?All of these seemed apt and yet too violent--too much for words. As if--to say them meant it was all very true and still not some nightmare. The Red Night had been vile, brutal--no. Ruthless? No, even that word did not taste right on her lips, on the cusp of her vivid recollection. The scent of blood still made her queasy--it was a miracle she could be a healer at all. At first, it had been difficult. She had been screamed at by an elf mage who was tired of a woman who was too light-headed at the sight of blood. In time, she got over it, but to say it did not still make her stomach churn would be a lie.
Corpses that were neatly displayed. Propped in ridiculous poses--ludicrous and insidious. It was evil, and yet there was a mockery--a jest of the lives the people led before they were killed. Raea blinked rapidly, forcing the memory down--down and away. It was not what she wanted pressed upon her memory stone with its curious memories already swirling around.
"--I'm sorry. It's honestly a long and sordid story. I won't bore you with the details. But I will say--I find you admirable, Your Ladyship! Not everyone in your position has the opportunities afforded to them to be able to step away. Who looks after your people while you are away--that is, if you don't mind my asking?" It occurred to Raea that she may have insulted a royal. She chewed her inner cheek and winced at the boldness and insinuation of her words. Not since the Red Night had she spoken to other nobles on equal measure--let alone an individual from a royal line.
It occurred to her that for someone who was of noble birth she truly had the most appalling manners...
Eternity