Private Tales Trapped Inside One's Mind

A private roleplay only for those invited by the first writer
Katja’s body trembled, her breath coming in ragged gasps as the world around her spun, the pain still clinging to her every nerve, but it felt distant now. As if it was happening to someone else. She tried to move, to speak, but her limbs felt heavy, like they had been drained of every ounce of energy.

Alistair’s voice cut through the haze, but it felt muffled, as though it came from far away. His words registered just enough to bring a fleeting smile to her lips—barely a flicker before the overwhelming darkness settled in again.

Katja’s eyes fluttered closed, the light slipping from them once more as unconsciousness swept her away, her body succumbing to the need for rest, for healing, both physical and otherwise, and the darkness welcomed her.
 
A moment of fear shot over Alistair as he made sure that Katja was unconscious and not dead. Once he confirmed that she was still among the land of the living, he groaned and pushed himself to his feet.

What followed was a blur in Alistair's own memory as he moved by pure force of will. He made sure the estate was locked up so no one came wandering in. Then he roamed the rooms until he found a blanket and pillow for Katja to rest.

As he knelt down to make her comfortable, his mind raced with other things he should probably do before he was able to rest.

Of course, those were his last thoughts, as the next thing he knew Al was waking up bleary eyed next to Katja.

How long had he been asleep?

Katja
 
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Katja's breath stirred in the quiet stillness of the room as the soft light of morning filtered through the broken windows, casting pale, golden beams across the cold stone floor. The flakes of snow drifted gently in, swirling lazily in the air. It was peaceful, the kind of moment that felt almost surreal given everything that had transpired.

She blinked slowly, her eyes heavy from the deep sleep that had overtaken her, the weight of exhaustion pulling her back to the present. The blanket over her felt like a small, but welcome comfort against the biting chill, and she drew it closer, pulling it tighter around herself.

Katja glanced at Alistair, her gaze softening as she took in the sight of him. He was still lying there, his condition not much better than hers. And yet he’d spent whatever power he’d had left on her.

She cleared her throat as he woke, the sound raspy but enough to pull her from the lingering haze of sleep. It took a moment for her to gather her thoughts, but when she spoke, her voice was quieter than usual—almost cautious, as if she wasn’t quite sure what to make of the situation. “I didn’t know you could do that... but thank you.” Her gaze dropped, a faint flush creeping up her neck, before she gave him a half-smile. “And I don’t hate you.”

Her chest tightening slightly as she realised, for the first time, how much he had risked for her.
 
Alistair shot up to a sitting position, and his body quickly reminded him why that was a horrible idea. Every bone, muscle, and crevis ached all over his body and it felt like any moment he was just going to crumble away. A groan escaped his lips before he registered that Katja was up and talking.

The young man smiled as he looked around the room again to make sure nothing was amiss before he admitted.

"Neither did I, but...I'm glad it worked out."

Another deep groan came from Alistair as he forced himself to fight through the pain and push himself to his feet. As soon as he was upright, a moment of vertigo hit him and his legs felt like they were jelly. He steadied himself before smiling again.

"I know...I'm pretty cool."

Katja
 
Katja held the blanket tightly against her chest, though it offered little comfort as her mind slowly pieced together the aftermath of what had happened. She winced at the aches and pains as she sat herself up, her body felt like it had been run over by a herd of wild beasts. The smell of her own blood clung to her, and she could feel the dried remnants of it all over her skin. It was overwhelming, the weight of it both physical and emotional.

"Yes... so you've said," she replied dryly, her voice strained as she sat up, wincing at the strain in her muscles. Her eyes swept around the hall, drawn to the empty space where Evander had stood and the stone that still sat there, brimming with power. Her head shook slowly, the reality of it all crashing down, and a tremble left her lips—a deep, raw breath as she tried to push through it.

"I should get cleaned up…" she murmured, her voice far weaker than she wanted it to be. Her head spun as she tried to rise to her feet, her body screaming in protest, but she forced herself to stand anyway. The dizziness threatened to pull her back to the ground, but she fought it, keeping herself steady.

Katja’s gaze softened for a moment as she glanced back at Alistair, her tired eyes taking in the damage he'd taken. She managed a half-smile, the action feeling foreign after everything that had happened.

"You're welcome to the guest wing. There's a bathing chamber... I can find you some clothes and something to eat, and bring you some salves and dressings for your wounds.." Her voice trailed off, and she frowned, pressing a hand to her forehead as the pain from the effort of standing surged through her head, making everything feel heavy and distant.

"You should rest up, before you get on your way.. Take his horse. Take whatever you want." she swallowed. It wasn't like Evander had much use of any of it anymore.
 
"Thanks, I should really..."

His mind raced with all the things he should being doing, like taking inventory of everything in the estate that he would be taking with him, but the words died on his lips. She was right, he desperately needed a shower and then maybe some food.

None of this stuff was going anywhere, he could do all the packing up later. Alistair's eyes turned to the stone that still sat on the floor, the one that had been Evander's final undoing. It was poetic in a way. Such a powerful magical artifact would certainly be going with him. He imagined himself gitty with the various studies he would perform on the object.

Pulling his mind away from work, he turned to Katja and took in her appearance. Although his magic had saved her, she looked like shit. While he would not go telling her that, it was clear that she needed the rest just as much as him.

"And you, what is next for you?

Katja
 
Katja shrugged, though the motion was sluggish, her body still protesting every small movement. Despite it, she offered a tired smile, one that didn't quite reach her eyes. "I go back to Neus and find my family, and hope they remember me."

The words felt strange on her tongue—hopeful, yet uncertain. Her smile faltered, her fingers tightening around the blanket as she glanced away, her frown deepening. Evander had erased her from their memories, ripped her existence from their lives. "I can only hope that his spells died with him. If not, then I guess I'm on my own." she sighed.

Her throat felt tight at the thought, the weight of it pressing down on her chest. For years, she had dreamt of this moment, of walking through the streets of Neus and finding the home she had lost. But now, standing on the edge of that possibility, the fear of what she might find—or not find—gnawed at her.

She forced herself to meet Alistair’s gaze again, pushing aside the doubt that threatened to swallow her whole. "At least I'm rich now, I suppose." Her lips curved, a weak attempt at humour, though it barely masked the anxiety curling in her gut.
 
Alistair did not need to be a mindreader or even socially aware, which he wasn't, to understand that Katja was scared right now. Who wouldn't be? She had just killed the ever-present shadow suppressing her only to find out she may still be left with nothing in the end.

"Well, I can at least tell you that the being rich bit is pretty fun." He tried to offer helpfully, but even his smile wasn't as confident as it was in the battle. Damn it, it was always so much easier smiling when a blade was aimed at his heart.

Alistair hesitated for a moment before continuing, awkwardly scratching at the back of his head.

"Listen, I know this isn't the greatest of offers and we only just met, but...if you go to Neus and things don't work out then...Come to Vel Anir, there is an island city off the coast called Dostan. My family and I live there. I can find you a good home, and it isn't much but you would know someone there...me."

That probably wasn't the most amazing offer for someone who had the rug that was their life pulled out from under them, but it was all he could think to do. And, if she did not like Dostan then maybe he could get her a townhouse or something in Vel Anir or one of the other cities.

Katja
 
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Katja blinked at him, momentarily caught off guard by the offer. Out of everything she had expected him to say, that hadn't been close. She had braced herself for more of his usual smugness, another joke to brush past the weight of the conversation, but instead, there was... this. A genuine offer.

She wasn’t sure what surprised her more—the fact that he had extended it, or the fact that, for a brief moment, she actually considered it.

Her fingers tightened slightly in the blanket, her gaze dropping to the floor as she chewed over his words. It was an out, a safety net if Neus turned out to be nothing but ghosts and strangers. For years, she had only thought about surviving long enough to reclaim what had been taken from her—but she had never planned beyond that. If there was nothing left for her in Neus, then what? She would be untethered, lost in a world that had already moved on without her.

Slowly, she lifted her head again, meeting his gaze with something softer, something almost vulnerable. "You’d do that?" she asked, her voice quieter now, not with uncertainty, but with the weight of someone unaccustomed to being offered kindness without strings attached.

For so long, every decision she made had been dictated by someone else's will. Even now, the idea of choosing something for herself felt foreign. But here he was, giving her an option. A choice.

She exhaled a slow, tired breath, her lips pressing into something that wasn’t quite a smile but held some semblance of warmth. "I don’t know what I’ll find in Neus," she admitted, "but... if it comes to that, then maybe I will." A pause, then a quiet, almost teasing lilt. "You better not be a terrible host."

It was an attempt at lightness, but beneath it lay something real. An acknowledgment. A thank you that she wasn’t quite ready to say aloud yet.
 
"Oh, I am, but I am told I'm getting better." He teased with a smirk.

Alistair wasn't great with negative emotions or really intense emotions, so this was the easier way to handle this. Katja might have seen this as Alistair helping her to some great degree, but...why shouldn't he help her when he had the power to? It was literally just a small home he was offering, which was a drop in the bucket when it came to money. He was also offering his friendship which he did not even value that highly.

It all literally seemed like the least he could do.

With that said the soreness of his bones seemed to ache even more and Al desperately needed a bath, so he began to walk off in the direction Katja had pointed. A nice scrub and some clean clothes would be just what he needed for the next steps in his plan.

Katja was right, she was rich now, but so was Alistair...soon to be rich in knowledge!

Katja
 
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Katja couldn’t help but huff a quiet laugh at his response, the lightness in his voice a welcome contrast to the heaviness that had settled in her chest. It was a fleeting moment of normalcy, and she found herself grateful for it.

She tilted her head, giving him a small, amused smile. "Well, I hope I never need to take you up on that offer, but..." she shrugged with a short, grateful nod. Her voice was softer now, her usual sharpness replaced with something almost affectionate, as if she were testing the boundaries of this new, unexpected dynamic.

She watched as he turned to leave, the exhaustion evident in the way he moved. Katja let her gaze linger on him for a moment before she spoke again, quieter this time. "Thank you, Alistair."

It was simple, but she meant it.

Katja made her way to her chambers. The soreness in her body ached with every movement—bruises, cuts, and the fresh scar on her chest making itself known as she undressed with slow, careful motions. The warm water of the bath felt like a brief reprieve, soothing her raw, exhausted muscles, but it couldn't erase the heaviness in her heart. Every touch of the water seemed to bring more clarity, as though she were washing away far more than just the dirt and blood.

Once she was clean, she dressed in comfortable leggings and a loose white shirt, the fabric soft against her skin. She paused in front of the mirror, eyes meeting her reflection. There was nothing to see but the aftermath—the fading bruises, the pale skin, and the weight of survival.

With a shake of her head, she left the room behind, and wandered through the halls, trying to ignore the oppressive silence that had fallen over the manner in the wake of it's master's death. As promised, she found some fresh clothes, a small healing kit, and prepared a simple meal.

When she reached Alistair's door, tray in hand, she hesitated for a moment, clearing her throat, then knocked gently.