In one conversation, Vaer had somehow managed to conjure both a wince and hesitation out of
Favashi. His level gaze watched her, nearly looking away out of some strange mixture of regret and sorrow before she answered.
Perhaps he was pushing too hard, or maybe he was opening up too quickly. Favashi was his friend and one that he wanted to keep in his life for as long as possible. Their friendship had worked just fine the way it was, only recently stumbling in moments like these. What was he doing wrong?
What was he doing
right?
Not that. Anything but that.
Keep them at arm’s length; that was the rule. Favashi shouldn’t have been an exception. He didn’t want another
Samara situation on his hands. Once bitten, twice shy.
Vaer smiled and nodded, happy that she agreed – happy that she was happy. There was a bittersweet twinge in his chest.
As they reached the door, Vaer turned to meet her and she did the same. He should have expected this and yet he looked down at her with brows arching in surprise and question as Favashi stepped close.
The energy between them was palpable. The soft pull of the boa across his neck and shoulders awakened every sense in his body and he was all too aware of her proximity. Again. He shouldn’t tease her like this. He shouldn’t have put himself in this exact spot over and over again. If he didn’t want it, didn’t want her and everything those dusty gold eyes promised, it might have been easier.
But he did. That was the problem.
“I have never feared what you are, Favashi,” he replied softly, his voice a rumbling timbre as he blurted out the first words he could form. They were recklessly sincere. She was as terrible and beautiful as a force of nature. She shook and awed him the same as wildfires and floods. There was nothing she had ever done or could ever do that would not change how he saw her, how he respected her.
Vaer swayed closer against his better judgment. His knuckles brushed along the bare, velvet tract of her upper arm. His palm splayed over the curve of her shoulder and continued its slow creep upward until he was cupping her face, his long fingers lacing through her hair at the nape of her neck. His thumb traced the line of her jaw while his resolve waged war upon itself.
Her breath was sweet and he wondered if her lips would taste like the wine they’d shared at dinner.
With that, Vaer’s resolve wavered. Not long, but long enough. He closed the scarce distance between them slowly like she might shy away – like
he might. His lips pressed against hers, as warm and soft as he’d not dared himself to imagine.
It was a disappointingly chaste kiss, and yet that simple act left him burning alive. His skin was flushed as he withdrew and it took several full seconds for him to open his eyes. His dark purple tongue slid along his lower lip.
She
did taste like the wine.
He finally managed to hobble his senses together into something that felt like
Vaer… but Vaer was born to run. The same twinge as before ached behind his ribs, and this time he didn’t do so well keeping it from his features. His hand slipped away and a crease formed between his brows when he smiled.
“Six days left. I look forward to the fresh torment tomorrow,” he laughed. So far the worst torment he’d experienced was taking a measured step away from Favashi toward his door.