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Umber eyes watched as Nym finally began to let her guard down, the emotions that he so adored observing spilling forth like a break in a dam. Watching her cry, knowing her tears were evoked by his words, was like having a burning spear forced through his gut...yet still he admired every moment she embraced her emotions. He drew in a deep breath, sure that no great feats had been accomplished just yet, but allowing himself to be hopeful all the same. Silently he was glad that she had not reacted in any volatile way to his grasp - he knew he was likely to have been stabbed, or worse, if she had taken the impulsive act as a threat.
He had been right. Nym had been burned by someone close to her. Just the thought filled him with unwonted anger. That someone could have scarred her this badly...the image of plunging his blades through the heart of such a man was immediately vivid in his thoughts, and he subconsciously realized why Nym was so driven to do the same to her betrayer.
The conclusion she drew, however, pulled him back into the moment. "I have no idea what I did wrong."
She...blamed herself? Pangs of sadness and anger shot through his heart like daggers. He didn't know the circumstances of what had happened, but something about the way she seemed to think the responsibility fell on her felt distinctly wrong.
The assassin continued listening to her until she'd had her say, contemplating her words as rationally as he could despite the torrent of thoughts and emotions rampaging within him. With her asking for forgiveness, her touch, he found his calm at the eye of the storm.
"The most hurtful thing you can do right now is push me away, Nym..." He murmured back to her in measured pace. "You must know that you are no coward. The woman who faced down a serpent with me, who brought a bandit a head taller than her to his knees, is no coward. You were hurt...it is natural to want to keep yourself from that pain again..."
"...But your heart cannot heal if you cut it out. I was not toying with you, either, I am--" "In love with you." He choked on the words. His heart screamed them, burned for him to admit it, but his brain fought at it, fearful that he would scare her away. His voice quieted, and he compromised in a half-confession. "--I am acting from my own heart."
Settra closed the gap between them, wishing to stop her tears, and brought his hands up to cradle her face. His palms slid up her cheeks, his fingers slipping past her ears to tussle her hair, soft and sable.
"I don't want you to ask my forgiveness, not for letting yourself be vulnerable. I want you to trust me. To lean on me. To give me a chance to help mend what 'he' broke. To know that I will not abandon you of my own will. Not ever.""
He swallowed hard, knowing that his next words would be difficult. If she took the out then it would mean never seeing her again. The mere idea crushed him, but...he had to. This wasn't about him. It was her story, and she had to decide for herself if she wanted him in it.
"...If you wish me gone, then order me so. I will leave Amol-Kalit and never return. You will not see me again." He whispered, and braced for the worst.
"He said that too..."
He had been right. Nym had been burned by someone close to her. Just the thought filled him with unwonted anger. That someone could have scarred her this badly...the image of plunging his blades through the heart of such a man was immediately vivid in his thoughts, and he subconsciously realized why Nym was so driven to do the same to her betrayer.
The conclusion she drew, however, pulled him back into the moment. "I have no idea what I did wrong."
She...blamed herself? Pangs of sadness and anger shot through his heart like daggers. He didn't know the circumstances of what had happened, but something about the way she seemed to think the responsibility fell on her felt distinctly wrong.
The assassin continued listening to her until she'd had her say, contemplating her words as rationally as he could despite the torrent of thoughts and emotions rampaging within him. With her asking for forgiveness, her touch, he found his calm at the eye of the storm.
"The most hurtful thing you can do right now is push me away, Nym..." He murmured back to her in measured pace. "You must know that you are no coward. The woman who faced down a serpent with me, who brought a bandit a head taller than her to his knees, is no coward. You were hurt...it is natural to want to keep yourself from that pain again..."
"...But your heart cannot heal if you cut it out. I was not toying with you, either, I am--" "In love with you." He choked on the words. His heart screamed them, burned for him to admit it, but his brain fought at it, fearful that he would scare her away. His voice quieted, and he compromised in a half-confession. "--I am acting from my own heart."
Settra closed the gap between them, wishing to stop her tears, and brought his hands up to cradle her face. His palms slid up her cheeks, his fingers slipping past her ears to tussle her hair, soft and sable.
"I don't want you to ask my forgiveness, not for letting yourself be vulnerable. I want you to trust me. To lean on me. To give me a chance to help mend what 'he' broke. To know that I will not abandon you of my own will. Not ever.""
He swallowed hard, knowing that his next words would be difficult. If she took the out then it would mean never seeing her again. The mere idea crushed him, but...he had to. This wasn't about him. It was her story, and she had to decide for herself if she wanted him in it.
"...If you wish me gone, then order me so. I will leave Amol-Kalit and never return. You will not see me again." He whispered, and braced for the worst.